BeanSidheBooks

Why Bean Sidhe? I have always felt Other. Different from the people around me, from my family and friends. Part of that may be because I was always an observer, watching the movement of people and things around me. It’s not just that though, I have always been different.

That’s hard to bear as a child. Knowing the others around you move effortlessly through situations and communities which baffle you. And you can never get a straight explanation, either for their behavior, or for what’s wrong with you. Everyone in your orbit just seems to see things differently than you. The runt in a litter is pushed out by the mother, or the other puppies. A wrong colored wolf will be ostracized from the pack.

As I grew though, I realized that there were people like me. I just had to reach out farther than the family and community I had been born into. Like a changeling, like a cuckoo, I had just been placed in the wrong nest.

I think it’s obvious that I write most about the fish out of water scenario. It is not deliberate. It is just my experience of the world. It is what I know. I don’t pretend to understand why these stories come to me. I don’t see myself as a very creative person. I just write down what the voices in my head tell me. I am a conduit, not the source. I cannot deny though, that the story and the voices are filtered through my experiences as a human being.

These are the stories I have been told. It is my task to write them down. It is your choice to read them or not. I hope they reach the people who need them. My favorite quote is by Vincent Van Gogh. “If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint’, then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.”

Most of my life has been a struggle against the doubt, against the voices who said ‘you cannot’, while the other voices told me stories. If any of this makes sense to you, you’re probably in the right place.

Welcome to the Labyrinth. I will occasionally post random musings and thoughts for those of us who struggle. If not, be blessed, and I hope your path is smooth and joyous. It has just never been mine.